December 5 - 25 Days of Christmas Blogging Challenge

Yesterday, I said goodbye to the last vestiges of my 30's and today, I say hello to my forties.

Honestly, the days leading up to my 40th birthday have been filled with thoughts of  'wow' and 'how did I get here?'  Not that I am surprised I'm still alive... no, more like... what happened to those 40 years and how did I get here so fast?

I'll be the first to admit, I don't feel 40 and everyone tells me I don't look 40... And it's true... 40 in 2012 is vastly different than what 40 was 40 years ago in 1972.  But, I'd be remiss if I didn't at least mention that my mortality has become very real and tangible this past year.  I mean, theoretically, half of my life is over... and dang, the first half zoomed by so quickly.

So, what have I learned in my 40 years?  Well, I'm not sure.  I'm not even sure I am who I'm meant to be.

But,...

• I know that there is nothing more important on this earth than your family.
• I know that trying to be someone you are not meant to be is only a burden.
• I know that I have limits and I'm not afraid to admit them.
• I know how to love fiercely and completely.
• I know that being a rule follower will keep you "safe", but oftentimes keeps you on the sidelines.
• I know that as long as I draw breath, God's not finished with me.
• I know that the days are long, but the years are short.
• I know my season right now is not about me and that's good too.

And, that's what I know.


Today is also my 14th wedding anniversary.  I'd have to say of my top 5 list of things that I'm most proud of, I'd say that I'm proud of the marriage that Randy and I share.  I'm proud of us... that we've made it this far... and have no plans of quitting.  That he loves me unconditionally and I love him unconditionally..  That he will protect me, love me and make me happy until the day we die and I will do the same.  That's he's mine and I'm his.


Randy, I love you.  Thank you for making me the happiest girl on the planet!